Struggling with Bipolar Disorder: My Journey with Medication

Okay so, in 2019 I saw a doctor for depression and she put me on Wellbutrin but it sent me into a hypomanic episode, so then she said I was likely bipolar 2 but before we could start Lamictal, I went to Greece for a study abroad semester that had been planned a while back. Once I was there I felt paranoid and crazy and really depressed, I think it was a mixed episode but when I saw the school psychiatrist at the Greek college, he said I was too young to be diagnosed with bipolar but gave me a script for Seroquel and said that would help w the symptoms I had. And oh boy it did help. I woke up the next day like a new person and the rest of my time in Europe went much smoother, Seroquel gave me my life back. But when I came home to the US I got a new psychiatrist and she continued the Seroquel but has been lowering the dose over the pay two years bc of the long term effects of high doses of Seroquel. I went from 300mg to now 50mg. Since then we’ve tried Prozac (I stopped taking it after a week for reasons I can’t remember) and Trazodone (which torpedoed my sex drive and didn’t work). She doesn’t think I’m bipolar because she only met me after the seroquel and also I don’t talk to her much which is my fault. But my mood episodes have been unbearable so I’m going to talk to her on Thursday about bipolar 2 and starting another mood stabilizer to replace seroquel since it is a very powerful drug and not a great long term solution. I just am so scared she won’t believe me or take me seriously. I’ve been doing a lot of research and I think I’m going to ask her to screen me for bipolar 2 and start a mood stabilizer such as Lamictal, bc that’s what my previous psychiatrist had suggested. I hate talking to doctors about my symptoms though bc I always feel like I’m faking it.