Struggling with Bipolar Depression: Need Advice

Medication. I destroyed everything in my path, I was arrested 3 times, then sectioned for 5 months. It's hard, but there's a light at the end of the tunnel. Guess it helps that I'm very stubborn and highly motivated. I give myself small rewards when I achieve something, e.g, can be something small like a lip gloss I wanted, etc.

Can you help me understand what it means to be manic? I've been going crazy for months and I lost my job so currently trying to get state insurance rolling to see my psychiatrist. I'm nervous as hell I'm going to lose everything.

that dip into depression is the worst, ive been experiencing that recently too so i understand how awful it is. ive been talking to a therapist which is really helpful but i understand not all ppl have access to a therapist. ive also been giving myself little rewards or doing some self-care after work to give myself something to look forward to & remind myself this depressive episode wont last forever & just be gentle with myself too

It's incredibly hard. I find my work still motivating because I work with other people who depend on me. Sometimes you can find your own means of motivation, only give yourself that treat on work days?