Struggling with Anxiety for Over a Decade

First, you are a strong person for being here with so much that has happened. Recognize that first and foremost! Second, you’re a strong mother, because you know what needs to be done, and despite you going back to bed when they’re done, or maybe even when it’s half assessed, it’s okay. Because being a mom is hard in itself without PTSD and depression! Do what you can and give your body and mind rest. There should be no shame in that. It will be okay, because you’re recognizing the things you want to change, and are actively searching! Understanding how huge that is, is something a lot of us who have gone through so much, don’t recognize as being “huge enough”. But it is!! You got this. You can make the change. It will be an uphill battle, and you’ll tend to fall sometimes. Remember you’re human and all you’ve went through. But don’t let it define you either. We just need to take breaks when we need to, and push ourselves to our limit. Love yourself and don’t hold back!

Can totally understand. I have childhood ptsd and ptsd from something that happened over 11 years ago and it’s still a struggle. I try to be mindful and keep people who understand me close. Knowing yourself and your triggers can help a lot too. Keep a diary for yourself on your habits, mood, medication, and triggers. Keep doing therapy, if you are, and keep your head up. I’ve learned that trauma doesn’t really disappear, but how we react towards the past traumas in the present gives us the control on how we want to be.