Struggling with Anxiety, Depression and Heartbreak

hey you guys good morning it's alot that been on my mind lately that I couldn't even say this year just being and I'm just trying to address something thingz about my anxiety and depression disorder and my sezuire disorder it's crazy to ever go to something like this the person who I thought love wanna be with multiple women and I denied because I don't want that life style and he is like 30 something years old while I'm in my 20s and he just click to me on how I decide on things that I been threw so much