Struggling with Anxiety and Depression Medication

ive thought about trying psychedelics but unfortunately I have no access to any of them nor are there any facilities for it in my area

My first thought is plant medicines or psychedelics since it sounds like you've tried everything else. Mushrooms, Ayahuasca, peyote, MDMA, etc. Look up the MAPS organization. They might have some helpful information.

Try EMDR therapy if you have traumatic events. I don’t believe talk therapy is helpful for many people.

You may want to look into TMS or Ketamine infusions. My sister’s depression was really treatment resistant and Ketamine infusions have been the only thing to help in a significant way. It may not be legal yet though depending on where you live. TMS is supposed to be really effective as well, but less so in people with bipolar/manic depression, it doesn’t sound like that’s relevant to you though. You’re not wasting anyone’s time, their job is to help you. I’m sorry that doctor gave up, but it does not mean you are hopeless, things can still get better. I hope you’ll find the will to keep trying.