Struggling with Anxiety and Depression

Anyone else ever just feel numb? Or experience the constant battle between anxiety and depression? Sometimes I honestly struggle to get out of bed at all, but then my anxiety kicks in and I tell myself that I’m failing everyone. And if I don’t do something, then I’m screwing myself over. Most of the time I do end up getting out of bed because of those anxious thoughts, but then I end up walking around like an emotionless zombie. I’ve never wanted to actually kill myself, but sometimes I wish I could just “unexist” in those moments if that makes any sense. Sometimes I honestly contemplate lying in bed until someone does something about it. But then again my anxiety chimes in and tells me if I do that then I’m destroying my future. Does anyone else feel this way?