@Feathers I know that I'm going to be making a medication adjustment because of the side effects but for a while I felt like I had found the perfect concoction for me. I'm definitely scared to try new meds but the side effects are starting to make me depressed, which is pretty contradictory if you ask me lol. I'm just scared I'll never regain motivation. As happy as I would feel, motivation was always still a struggle for me on these meds, so maybe you're right because I feel like it shouldn't be that way. Even in my happiest state, I had no motivation to keep my room tidy, no motivation to clean my house, and no motivation to do things that I once had interest in. I'm not sure if that's the unmedicated ADHD (still trying to find a psychiatrist to prescribe me medication for that), or if the meds weren't working.