Struggling to Go to Therapy: Why Am I So Scared?

For me, one reason I'm slow to pull the trigger sometimes is because like any other provider, it can take several visits to several different people to find the right fit. For me, I hate the feeling of having to open up to someone I'm not going to work with long term. Ultimately, I have to accept my feelings, thank them for trying to protect me, and just set the appointment. If you're thinking you want/need to go to therapy, you're probably right. You know you best. Good luck to you!

I can definitely understand that. For me personally deciding to reach out to a therapist this time was a huge thing for me because for one it was my choice. (In the past therapy was never my decision but forced on me through hospitals, doctors and treatment centers). I know the woman I’m on a waitlist for only does virtual appts for the time being due to Covid. Also remember you can “look around”. Talk to different therapists to get a sense of each one. The one I’m waiting for said she recently hired 2 others in her practice and wanted to know if I wanted to start earlier or wait for her but I said I didn’t want to sound picky but trust is so hard for me in general I’d rather wait for her since we talked on the phone already. Especially since I haven’t had good experiences with therapists in the past. There isn’t a rush. Always remember this is your journey, your story, you get to decide how it goes!

For me I face the same problem not with therapy but with other things. You could be scared which is fair. Being sick in any form is a commitment that we are forced into. Beginning the steps to get healthy takes a lot of energy and can be overwhelming. — on the other hand I have learned that there are times where I have sabotaged myself. Not taking medicine or not making an appointment is a form of self harm that I have participated in. I would just keep this in mind while you consider what is holding you back.