i’m not sure what schooling / level of schooling you’re in- but when i was in high school, if felt never ending, like a sense of doom. it only partially left when i graduated. the doom turned from “how am i going to graduate?!” into “how am i going to survive?!” the doom i felt made me never want to go to school. in elementary i always said my stomach hurt so i didn’t have to participate too. i never enjoyed any schooling.

last year i was a junior in highschool, and i struggled to go everyday, i was in a depressive episode and eventually started skipping classes. i failed almost every class after i stopped attending almost entirely. this year im a junior again. it sucks, but once you hit rock bottom, you can only go up from there. i hope you’ll be okay in the end

i don’t think it’s laziness, motivation may just be really hard to find

I feel the same exact way. I feel no motivation to go to school, I never want to go. Just think about happy things you do at school, like lunch. When you can and your not supposed to be paying attention, think about other things and don't stress about thr hard work.