Struggling to Feel Positive Emotions

Yes, I am currently going through a long period of this. It is causing me to not message my friends much. I am lucky to have a boyfriend who is patient and understanding, but the internal struggle 😭😡🙈

Yes, I go through times where my mind is telling me my partner doesn't want me and I should just run (I tend to be a flight risk). I also have times where I am completely numb to all feelings, and that scares me the most. The best thing I've learned is to sit my partner down and tell her everything I'm feeling. Unfortunately, she has some things going on herself, and it takes a day or two for her to respond, but I understand because usually, the things I say are a shock to the senses. But in the end, we both support each other wholeheartedly.