Struggling to Accept My New Body Image

I’m really struggling with my body image. Logically, I know my weight is healthy for my height (5’11 female) and I weigh 158 pounds. However, I used to weigh 140 at the beginning of this year. At my lowest point, I was only 130 pounds, which is alarming for my height. Although I am in recovery for my eating disorder, every time I look in the mirror I want to skip a meal. It’s really hard for me to accept my new body as it’s unexplained how I gained all of this weight. I feel super depressed about it and all I want to do is be thin again. I know it isn’t good for me to lose weight quickly. I work out every day, eat vegan, and take vitamins. I just wish I could accept my body the way it is because I know it is perfectly healthy.