Spending the Holidays Alone for the First Time

So tomorrow will be the first holiday that I will ever spend alone in my life. No family, no friends, no one. I've really struggled with that today. I can't imagine how tomorrow will be. just when I feel like I'm doing better, that I have everything figured out, life sends me a f*** you. I don't believe on happiness anymore, I feel like it's a figment of my imagination. I'm tired of struggling and fighting just to get through the day. I know I'm not the only one who feels this way. I even volunteered at work to see if they would let me work the next 2 days, so I wouldn't have to be alone, and they said no. I'm at the end of the road with no where to go.