Struggling with Self-Hatred After Argument with Boyfriend

We had a really good weekend. We worked out in the yard and did stuff together just fine. Most of the issue is me and my brain.

I’m sorry you dealt with that. I hate my body. My disability keeps me from loving all of me

Sorry you feel that way my family has been giving me issues so bad sometimes I wish I wasn't even born the only best friend was mom and she died back in 2014 so I have no one special to talk to about things and wish she didn't leave

Hey @JBug7677 how have the last couple days been for you?

You might have heard it before I suggest you try God! I definitely been there before Im taking medication for depression. I just started liking myself about 2 years ago. 🙏

I get the same way, I hate it

My husband has a bad habit of doing that all the time he'll blow up on me and make me feel so horrible then act like everything is fine. It really sucks. I have been using exercise to try and help me get out of those depression states, sometimes it works. I hope you're doing better.

Oh my gosh!! I feel the same way sometimes. I try so hard to do right and be a good person etc and I get remind of how I fall short and fail. I’ve learned that when you suffer from depression, being around certain personalities will alway trigger you. I still struggle with allowing people to make me feel worse as I’m my own worst critic and having someone confirm my worst thoughts causes a spiral. I do hope you feel better. It’s hard I know but try not to let their words get to you. Counter act them in your head. Doesn’t always work but it helps me not get to my absolute low point.

First thing this morning.... I let the dogs out and one is on a run. His tie-out got caught around the water hose and I was trying to untangle it, and yelled at the dog. My bf comes to the door and says something about what are you yelling about? I told him and he got smart with me and it just really got to me. So I'm upset again. Then the cat didn't want any of my milk so I said "figures...can't make you happy either"....I'm just really tired of not being able to do anything right.

And I can’t stand after an argument when my bf tries to act like everything’s fine. That kind of stuff takes me time to heal!!! Hope tomorrow is better for you, sending you lots of love and support ❤️

I totally understand how you feel, it’s the worst trying to get out of a mindset after you’ve had someone treat you like that.

Aw man, I'm sorry you're going through that. Arguments can be the roughest parts in relationships. That's not cool he just got out of the car and left you, really. At least you know that he wants to make things better. Try to go easier on yourself. One of the best coping mechanisms that I've learned is to talk to myself a little bit nicer, as if I cared about myself as I care about others.