Seeking Connection and Happiness in Life

I am a 57 year old Man I recently came out of a long depression I am currently dealing with insomnia I have been dealing with depression and mania on and off since I was 21, but for the last 20 years it has been much more on than off, until 2005 I had times of being actually happy and working, but I have not had a permanent job since 2004 and have not had a girlfriend since 2011 I am very lonely romantically and I struggle with my faith in the Christian God, Ilso have to use a walker, and I am ashamed that I live in a group home now what I want out of life is a normal life like my brother has with a great wife great children a meaningful job a dog a house and a lot of friends and genuinely being happy, I do not have ANY of those things I am not sure if we're supposed to say what we enjoy doing so others can relate to us but I love family, friends, nature, dogs, sports,movies, 80s music, board games. I just want to be happy again and live a normal, meaningful life, I joined this app to meet people who can relate to me and help me and who I can relate to And help them. I do not know at all how this app works but if I seem like someone you can relate to please contact me. I wish all of you well and I hope I can help you on your journey and I hope you can help me on my journey in life! ❤️