Struggling with a Break in my Relationship

I've been having a really hard time lately. my boyfriend, the same one I've spoken before, he and I have been working through things. within the last week though we've been on a break but today I was out at his place and he has decided to extend the break as he is trying get stuff with his money and Job worked out. i have absolutely agreed to give him space though that would force me to be around my family. I don't particularly get along with my family. we're moving and my parents are prepared for three people and three animals when they move as they have my grandfather but they are not prepared for four people and three animals. I feel the urge to commit myself but that would mean that I would have to give up my firearm which I carry legally and I would probably never get it back. I've thought about hurting myself but I also promised my boyfriend that I wouldn't hurt myself and I feel like if I did then he would do something to himself because it was his decision for the break between us and i don't want that to happen. I honestly just have no idea what to do anymore