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bellacourse

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I think I might be bipolar... but I don't know if it's that or BPD. I've been diagnosed with PTSD as well as major depression, anxiety, and ADHD. These past few weeks I've been extremely depressed to the point of almost harming myself (I have a history of self harming behavior) and I just feel so numb sometimes. The reason I'm questioning if I'm bipolar is because people have asked me if I was bipolar in the past, because I have extreme highs and extreme lows and there isn't much in between. (more in comments)

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    • bellacourse

      436d

      (2) I'm also super impulsive and tend to make these impulsive decisions when I'm really depressed or even just super bored and really impatient about it (ex: cutting/dying my hair, getting a new piercing, speeding, being a little promiscuous, getting a new tattoo, spending hundreds of dollars on clothes I don't need, etc). I also tend to lash out at people during these times without meaning to and my mood switches up super quickly. I can be happy one minute and then extremely angry the next and then extremely depressed and then back to happy. I also obsess over people and little things. Like if they don't text me back I think they are mad at me/don't like me anymore. It's the worst with guys I like. I also really struggle with decision making for myself and a lot of my thoughts and feelings contradict each other (ex: I want a relationship because I'm lonely and bored but I also don't want one because emotions are messy and I don't want to keep getting hurt or hurt someone else, I'll go from liking someone one day to not liking them the next and then back to liking them, wanting change but being afraid of change, things like that). I sometimes feel like I'm going crazy. Does anyone know what this might be? (I'm not going to self-diagnose but it would help a lot if I knew what direction to start in) Also sorry for the super long post I just wanted to be thorough. Thank you! ❤️

    • klazikel

      436d

      A lot of what you've described is hitting home for me, too. I've been living with bipolar disorder for a while now and have definitely had those days when my emotions were rapid fire all over the place. I really hope you can find some type of coping mechanism to help steer you away from hurting yourself. Please try to remember your feelings and thoughts aren't facts. They are temporary and will always pass with time. It sounds like you have seen or are seeing a medical professional, hopefully a psychiatrist. Have you brought up your concerns to them? I think it would be a good idea to bring this up with a professional because you have made a lot of good points. If you'd like to talk more about this or anything, feel free to DM me.😁 I wish you the best on your journey.

    • ceruleanstar

      436d

      You could be both. I am bipolar 1 and you sound A LOT like an unmedicated me. I have not ever been diagnosed BPD but I had a psychiatrist consider it when I was younger, a lot of the symptoms overlap.

    • Angieravvensmom

      436d

      It sounds like me and I'm manic depressed bipolar

    • bellacourse

      436d

      (2) I'm also super impulsive and tend to make these impulsive decisions when I'm really depressed or even just super bored and really impatient about it (ex: cutting/dying my hair, getting a new piercing, speeding, being a little promiscuous, getting a new tattoo, spending hundreds of dollars on clothes I don't need, etc). I also tend to lash out at people during these times without meaning to and my mood switches up super quickly. I can be happy one minute and then extremely angry the next and then extremely depressed and then back to happy. I also obsess over people and little things. Like if they don't text me back I think they are mad at me/don't like me anymore. It's the worst with guys I like. I also really struggle with decision making for myself and a lot of my thoughts and feelings contradict each other (ex: I want a relationship because I'm lonely and bored but I also don't want one because emotions are messy and I don't want to keep getting hurt or hurt someone else, I'll go from liking someone one day to not liking them the next and then back to liking them, wanting change but being afraid of change, things like that). I sometimes feel like I'm going crazy. Does anyone know what this might be? (I'm not going to self-diagnose but it would help a lot if I knew what direction to start in) Also sorry for the super long post I just wanted to be thorough. Thank you! ❤️

      • SecondChance

        436d

        @bellacourse my post is shorter 😅

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