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Brooke2024

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TW: My parents don't care about mental health. It was hard enough when it was just mood disorders (social anxiety/depression), but now, less than a year ago, my counselor diagnosed me with ADHD & mild autism (it doesn't feel official so I want to go to a psychologist; it feels wrong to say i'm autistic yet). My mom told me my social anxiety will go away by the time I graduate, but its worse than ever. My dad doesn't understand how it affects me and forces me to speak and yells at me for my faults that I don't have much control over (memory, losing things, not comprehending things and making simple mistakes/lack of common sense). My mom believes autism is caused by vaccines and that autism is an illness/bad thing. She's nice to autistic people, but she doesn't want or care to understand them or puts certain expectations on them (not acting weird or following social rules/norms). She and my dad don't know I've been diagnosed and I haven't fully accepted my diagnosis until it's from a psychologist. They aren't like abusive all the time. We laugh, love each other and try to have fun and hang out, but they don't want to know or understand their children. My stepmom even laughed when I told her I wanted to kms, her, my step aunt and step cousin. We get along now but I can't forget that or truly trust her bc of that. I'm afraid they will do my baby sister like that when they don't know how to handle her possible issues or that my brother will not get treatment and continue to be ignored. He has told me he's very depressed. I have selective mutism and I suspect he is suffering from it too now. We are somewhat similar, but were raised differently (he was punished more, I was more praised until a certain age).

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    • EmberRose257

      772d

      I totally get where you're coming from. My Psych NP told me she believes i have autism and wanted me to get screened. I have an appointment scheduled, but it isn't until July. I told my grandmother, the person who practically raised me, about the possibility of autism and she said, "That's a crock of s*it, [me]. All they want to do is throw pills at you. Thats why they keep diagnosing you with something every other week." That is very untrue, I've been seeing my therapist since 2019 and was diagnosed with Anxiety, PTSD, Bipolar, and a couple of other things. I'm currently not medicated because of my new insurance refusing to pay for my meds (another can of worms). I dare not tell my mother about any of my diagnoses, either. I look at my two younger siblings and my brother has an anxiety disorder that he's self medicating with THC, and my sister also has some form of anxiety disorder. Both of them are not in treatment and I fear they never will be. The only thing I can really do is help myself, for right now. If you ever wanna chat about anything, just PM me :) I'm always down to talk

    • EmberRose257

      772d

      I totally get where you're coming from. My Psych NP told me she believes i have autism and wanted me to get screened. I have an appointment scheduled, but it isn't until July. I told my grandmother, the person who practically raised me, about the possibility of autism and she said, "That's a crock of s*it, [me]. All they want to do is throw pills at you. Thats why they keep diagnosing you with something every other week." That is very untrue, I've been seeing my therapist since 2019 and was diagnosed with Anxiety, PTSD, Bipolar, and a couple of other things. I'm currently not medicated because of my new insurance refusing to pay for my meds (another can of worms). I dare not tell my mother about any of my diagnoses, either. I look at my two younger siblings and my brother has an anxiety disorder that he's self medicating with THC, and my sister also has some form of anxiety disorder. Both of them are not in treatment and I fear they never will be. The only thing I can really do is help myself, for right now. If you ever wanna chat about anything, just PM me :) I'm always down to talk

    • ParanoiaK

      772d

      My parents are the same way and they both worked in the medical field. Ironic, huh? My mom believes in mental disorders, but doesn’t believe mine. My dad thinks it all for show even though I had the diagnosis for years now. My father expects me to “grow” out of it or something. Whenever I tried to kill myself or sh, they sent me to mental facilities to be treated. My parents themselves never tried to help their own child, instead sending them to “medical professionals” that “know” what they are doing. Now I have recently learned I am diagnosed autistic and I am scared to tell them about it. I already mask my degrading mental health, now I have to mask autism the way I was for years now since I was undiagnosed. I am being called lazy for never having energy to do anything, sensitive for the pressure of life affecting my mental health and making it worse over the fact I have to hide it, and childish for the way I act and behave when overstimulated or stim to calm down. I try to make it subtle and barely noticeable to them so they don’t send me away, but it’s so hard and exhausting.

      • Brooke2024

        772d

        @ParanoiaK Sorry I'm late replying. That's how I feel. Sorry that you also have to go through this with your parents. For me, it was different with mood disorders bc even though recovering from one is a maze, there is a tangible "cure" or it can be made better. Autistic and ADHD are labels I can never get rid of. I'm born with it and even though its not all I am, it's a part of it. I've tried educating them on it, but they said they don't even want to know what it is and that they don't believe the counselor (if they don't know what it is, how can they say I don't have it?). I gave my aunt a great article bc she made me believe she cared and would listen. She finally admitted she doesn't care then guilted me and started crying when I didn't agree with her (didn't even have to yell). I can't escape these labels my dad calls me (lazy, forgetful, irresponsible) and it feels like they'll never go away. My mom already let me know she thinks autistic people are weird and that autism should be eradicated/cured. Being born a preemie, they made me their miracle child (I was a rainbow baby), but never looked into the struggles I could face being that I was born early. They thought I was "perfect" as in no health issues, mental, physical or otherwise. I've been about self improvement all my life and its taken me nowhere bc im realizing I need more help.

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