Overwhelming Obsession and Guilt

These things happened but try to remain calm Ik how you feel in a way as I’m interested in a female myself as a lesbian and that person is on my mind but how I dealt with is is having toys named after her then doing the things you want to do with the one your interested in but be sure to wash the toy😅 I know it sounds stupid but that’s because I’m stupid but it does help I’m embarrassed to admit it but it’s true

I think you should reach out to your sexual partners and let them know that you may act in impulse and you'd appreciate if they could respect you by knowing you aren't always in the right mind, and stopping you from doing something you will regret. If they say no, they obviously don't have respect for your boundaries and are just using you in your most vulnerable state.

If you are looking for support: You're not alone in these struggles. You also didn't do anything actually wrong, so try not to let that guilty feeling take up your whole day. If you want advice? Distract when you have the urge to have sex you don't actually want, whether that's by masturbating or by watching TV. I'd also say it's probably a good idea to consider the 'bad parts' of the person you are obsessing over (they havent replied to me, they made that weird comment that one time, they make me feel uncared for, etc). Doing so makes my obsessions fade rather quickly to get replaced by That ick feeling, and then maybe try and explore some youtube channels to get hyperfixated on instead of any one person, here's some of my faves that's I've binge-watched videos from. Kurtis conner (most recently), Danny gonzalez, Bailey sarian, Mr. Ballen (be careful w those last two because they have some darker stories with a wide variety of flavors of 'darkness')