i am the happiest ive been in years. im eating 3 meals a day (AND SNACKS) and functioning without medication or therapy. i feel so loved and my relationships with my closest friends and my sister have improved so much this summer. im getting to be a teenager again, feeling my emotions, and regaining my confidence. when people say it gets better it DOES. if i had gone through with my plans i wouldn't have met the person im head over heels for, my best friend and gym partner, the nice woman in lush who gave me honey soap for free, my amazing coworkers who love me more than my parents do, or this version of myself. it's so fucking. cheesy but i am so happy and im so glad i didn't kill myself last year. it's taken so long but i am whole again and i can see a future past 20.