@mtngoat i hardcore hated my body once I was weight restored. I tried to relapse but later realized that I actually wanted to live without an Ed. I started looking at other women and their body’s, specifically women with larger figures. I realized that I didn’t need to be thin to be beautiful and I actually began to realize how childish and un-womanly I looked. I started to look up to woman like Cardi B and Jaylo 😂 basically I realized how beautiful bigger women were and I actually started intentionally gaining weight.