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I was diagnosed with OCD by my psychiatrist not that long ago and have been paying attention to the symptoms I have. This has also lead me to realize some things that aren’t normal but I’m not sure if they are OCD related either. They seem like they could be schizophrenia related but I’m not sure. I would be infinitely grateful if someone would read through what I have experienced and tell me what they think! I’ve been paranoid and delusional my whole life. Some of my first memories are of these things. From my earliest memories to around 7th grade I was EXTREMELY paranoid and delusional. I have a million examples but I don’t need to get into details right now. When I was very young I was quite vocal about those things because I didn’t realize that it was atypical. As if gotten older, those things have evolved into different fears and delusions. For most of my life I’ve also experienced what seems to me like a mix of maladaptive daydreaming and delusions. I end up convincing myself that I’m from another world and being watched or followed by those from it. And I would daydream about returning to the world I was from. My delusions aren’t as severe as they have been at the moment, but I have been able to recognize that for the past few years I’ve been experiencing olfactory hallucinations, tactile hallucinations, and what I think are simple visual hallucinations. Additionally, I quite often feel disconnected from reality in some way I can’t put my finger on. I’ve also been able to look back at times and identify episodes of disassociation and derealization. In the more recent years of my life I have also struggled with very bad episodes of depression. These are the times when the symptoms seems to manifest and worsen the most. But, I’m currently in a decent place so, it’s hard to identify everything I’ve experienced. In these times I know I experience depression, self isolation, feeling of impending doom, trouble with memory (and often struggle to remember the episode after it has passed), abolition, decreased motivation, decreased sense or purpose, extremely blurry mind, mirrored self misidentification, and anhedonia. I know there is other things I’m not able to recall at the moment, but I very much appreciate any help in figuring out what this may be.

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    • stormysundays

      286d

      i am diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder and ocd and i really relate to your post. i agree with the other people who have posted their response so i am unsure what to add but i just wanted to validate what you're feeling lol. i would definitely bring it up when you see a professional, though - i cannot emphasize that enough. even if you don't have schizophrenia or a psychotic disorder antipsychotics are worth trying out, they saved my life. i wish you luck on figuring things out :)

    • Sunshineseeker90

      285d

      That seems like a positive sign that you can recognize them as such. I dont have experience with that, just OCD. Are you planning on seeing a Psychiatrist that can diagnose you and go over your treatment options such as medicine?

    • stormysundays

      286d

      i am diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder and ocd and i really relate to your post. i agree with the other people who have posted their response so i am unsure what to add but i just wanted to validate what you're feeling lol. i would definitely bring it up when you see a professional, though - i cannot emphasize that enough. even if you don't have schizophrenia or a psychotic disorder antipsychotics are worth trying out, they saved my life. i wish you luck on figuring things out :)

    • Sunshineseeker90

      288d

      I think doctors typically prescribe antipsychotic medication for delusions. Have you been prescribed that? Does it help?

      • _Rat_

        288d

        @Sunshineseeker90 unfortunately I just realized what I experience are delusions a few weeks ago, so I’m not on any medication for them.

    • tigershark98

      288d

      Yes, it is absolutely possible that particularly your symptoms of delusions, hallucinations, and negative symptoms such as avolition & anhedonia could be caused by Schizophrenia or a different Psychotic Disorder. I am diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder and OCD. Your descriptions of the kinds of delusions you have had, sound similar to some of the things I have believed in the past. I altered my life greatly because of these beliefs. As for hallucinations, personally I experience hallucinations in all 5 senses (auditory, visual, tactile, olfactory, gustatory), with the primary being visual and very detailed. It is more common for people to have primarily auditory hallucinations. In my teens, I had the experience of a therapist misunderstanding my descriptions of violent visual hallucinations I was having as “intrusive thoughts”. I have also read about a phenomena in which it is not unusual for some people with psychotic disorders to display subclinical symptoms of OCD, or to even have comorbid OCD as I do. I believe the rate cited was 25% for at least subclinical OCD symptoms. Sometimes healthcare providers are also afraid of diagnosing someone with a psychotic disorder because of the stigma associated with it and because it is often viewed as a “life-destroying” diagnosis. However as another person whose psychotic symptoms began at a very early age, there can be a lot of suffering and confusion created/allowed when professionals refuse to treat it, out of fear of “ruining” the patient. I have had hallucinations since the age of 6 and only began receiving treatment at 18, which at first they tried to call it “Insomnia” (I have never had trouble sleeping), then for years said I had “Recurring Psychotic Episodes of Unknown Cause” and then after several years of being on antipsychotics they updated it to Schizoaffective Disorder.

    • AnimalBoy

      288d

      Depression and the symptoms of depression as well as paranoia/delusions/hallucinations all have been observed as both being symptoms and more likely to occur in those with OCD especially if they're experiencing stressors both related and unrelated to their OCD. Many people with Neurodivergent conditions have comorbidities of depression, anxiety, paranoia, ect and also have traumatic experiences due to their condition or the treatment by others because of their condition that are likely to cause these symptoms as well. I also saw that you have PTSD listed as a condition, PTSD paranoia as well as delusions and hallucinations can be symptoms of both Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Paranoid delusions caused by OCD may be exacerbated by PTSD and vice versa. PTSD also has symptoms of disassociation, memory issues, and impending doom. There are a handful of other conditions that it still could be, nuerodivergent conditions tend to have overlapping symptoms, but OCD and PTSD do technically fit and treatment for those conditions may help with the symptoms. It still is probably a good idea to bring up your symptoms to a medical professional so you can talk about your treatment options for those symptoms as well as brainstorming other possibilities if you both think your experiences might be something different or something additional to the conditions you've already been diagnosed with.

      • _Rat_

        288d

        @AnimalBoy thank you. This helped calm the panic of having to research another condition :,)

        • AnimalBoy

          286d

          @_Rat_ no worries you can get plenty of treatment options that might help the symptoms regardless too, for example if you'd like to seek antipsychotics to see if they'd help with hallucinations and delusions I would suggest using your PTSD diagnosis to pursue that as it's more common of a treatment method. However they also sometimes prescribe antipsychotics in lower dosages to help with compulsions in those with OCD. Psychotherapy is also often recommended as a start for those with hallucinations and paranoia as well as depression symptoms and a number of other kinds of therapies should be available to help depending on your situation. I hope you find the right treatment for you.

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