My Life in My Head: Coping with Maladaptive Daydreaming

Just realized that I’ve been using maladaptive daydreaming as a coping mechanism since elementary school (grade 5), and its the reason I can’t remember so much. Wow. I spent days in my own worlds and it was the highlight of my day, week, month even. I would be sitting down, maybe listening to music (I had questionable taste) and I would step out of reality and into my perfect world, full of never ending adventures. Wow. I’m just realizing how bad it was. I genuinely can barely remember anything from that period of my life, especially the traumatic experiences that have happened and have been confirmed by bystanders. I dreaded coming back to reality. Living in my head was all I wanted to do. Its literally all I’d do for the entire day. No friends, no connections, just sitting in my shared room in our cheap rent, on a grey goodwill blanket, blasting nightcore lmfao, and leaving the world for hours or ever days. I was just gone. I disappeared into it