My Journey with Mental Illness: Finding Hope and Strength

so ive been up all night and it's 6:57 am so im going to try to keep this short. ive been feeling a lot more positive things lately. if you've read my other stuff you would maybe understand that that is a rly rly big thing for me. i haven't felt this good in my whole life and i still have so far to go and i actually have hope for once. i have ptsd, gad, bpd, ocd, asd, and depression as far as we know of. basically i feel like im an alien test subject. ive been feeling very good and healthy and hopeful despite still feeling like an alien being experimented on, i feel a lot more cerebral yet normalish (???) but it's good for me and im proud of myself. a lot of good things have been happening in my life and im proud and happy and grateful for that and myself and so many amazing people in my family (chosen or blood it's the same). im too tired to go into depth right now about the highs and lows about how i am right now but overall. im doing good and im confident in saying that im hopeful proud and strong. you would never believe what ive been through, what ive learned, and what i have intended on in life. people shouldn't have to go through the things that ive been through to learn things that humans start learning when they're born. it's unfair but in this world it's how you learn to become yourself, even if you are autistic rly traumatized and mentally ill it won't be easy, as a matter of fact you need to learn to be strong on your own before you can be strong for other people. this has been zan's wisdom ig but that's just what i have learned and be the change you seek y'know? so yeah moral of the story; i feel like a newborn angel and everyone is something different. everything is a construct and everyone has a different perception. everything is made up⇆nothing is real⇆everything is nothing is everything. you know your own self, brain, and true intentions. be yourself, be happy, you only live this life once, god/the universe/whatever only know what's next. i am no longer living like everyone is watching everything im doing right and wrong. i feel like people are seeing what i can let them see in myself. these are my socials for art/life (same thing) if you fw my vibe @555bean_irl (main) @pr3ttylittl3ang3l (art)