My grandmother was devoted and would watch sermons every Sunday morning. Worship is about your connection with God first and foremost. Maybe find a good online sermon with a focus on God first and not the politics and corruption I keep seeing in too many churches (not all there are many that are wonderful places of community.)

Take all the time you need. Even Jesus needed time tk himself. God doesn’t want you in an uncomfortable situation that can cause confusion

I'm not a Christian anymore, but the church I grew up in had this thing called "church has left the building." The first Sunday after Christmas was exclusively online. One of the church's beliefs was that "the church" was the people, not the building. Being a Christ-follower meant a real relationship with God and Jesus, independent of how often a person attended church. Your coworker likely meant well, but what works for them might not be right for you. Church, faith, and spirituality are between you and your God. You can consider other opinions and advice, but ultimately your relationship with God is between you and God; no one else gets to decide how that should work. And a loving, merciful God wouldn't want you to cause yourself any kind of harm when you could avoid it by worshipping or praying alone.

If you can find ways of having community, worship and pray. God doesn't blame us for our struggles. If you need to take a break, find a calmer church, go online. What ever you need to do.

Thank you all you lovely people! This really uplifted me & helped me out!