Struggling with Digestive Issues After Gallbladder Surgery

I got my gallbladder out on May 6th and since then its been a roller coaster of digestive issues. I had diarrhea I’ve had severe constapation. My gerd seems to continiously getting worse. Yesterday I had a good day and today It’s like it shot me right back down and im having trouble coping. Mentally im just ready to die and to stop dealing with this. Ive had a terrible relationship with food for the past four months. I cant stop chewing and spitting. I started doing it as a way to taste food that I couldn’t eat because I got my gallbladder removed and now it’s like I can’t stop doing it. I’m scared to eat anything because I have a fear of vomiting but I’m probably just making my Gerd and acid reflux worse by constantly chewing tasty food and spitting it out. Hours after I eat something I just go right back to feeling sick and scared puke so I’m just scared to eat anything at this point. I have horrible bloating and indigestion constantly. Ive been dealing with this crap for 5 months and i constantly think and log to myself how i feel 24/7 and its exhausting and i feel hopeless. I want to die