Looking for Mental Health Support and Connection

Hello everyone. Just checking in. Would very much like to become better acquainted with everyone

I'm also 48. Feeling new to life honestly having left a religion that was very structured. Finding my voice. But traveling alone.

You sound exactly like my mom 😂 she found her people eventually, you'll find yours too 💕

Every coin has two sides. It helped me a lot to not think of being diagnosed and my new life as a negative, but as a good excuse to take care of myself. Best wishes.

I would like that.

I have zero friends so I know what it's like to feel constantly isolated. Be strong❤️💕

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