I've been struggling with my mental health for a very long time. I had body image issues and hated my body when I was 9 years old. When I was 10, I started to suffer from mild depression, but didn't know it at the time. I became severely depressed and s*icidal at 14 years old. I was admitted 3 times that year almost back to back into a mental health facility. They threw me on a bunch of meds that practically zombified me so I stopped taking them when I got home. I started therapy that same year. I remained depressed and when I was about 17 or 18, I decided to give medication another try. I could never find the right meds that would work for me. At 18 or 19, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder after the meds weren't fully working for me. At around 20, I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, which my ex suspected I had after a toxic relationship from the both of us. I didn't know how to have a stable, healthy relationship and that's probably why my first love didn't last at 19. I didn't start to feel better until I was 21 and finally on the right concoction of meds. They worked for about two years until now, and now I'm having side effects that are no longer outweighing the benefits. I am now depressed again, but am working on finding the right meds for me so I can be happy again. I felt like I've never truly got the right concoction of meds, but I am trying my hardest to find that. I've tried a lot of different medication that hasn't worked for me. I don't think I'd be alive right now if it weren't for therapy though. Therapy truly saved my life and helped me work through a LOT of my childhood/adolescent and even adulthood traumas. I have learned how to have a healthy relationship and now have a fiancée and we are in a very happy, healthy relationship.