Struggling with Medication Withdrawal

Yeah medication can be a tough pill to swallow wow I made a pun lol but yah I take meds it can seem it will take away you being you but depression and anxiety is you and that sucks 😔.I believe meds isn't a cure nothing is! You will always have to continue to work on yourself . Don't give up on your Happiness

I chose to not get my meds refilled when I was not covered by insurance and didn't do anything once I got my insurance. Then two weeks ago I started having trouble chest pains and other anxiety symptoms out of nowhere. So been there. Now I have to wait three weeks till I can see my doctor to talk about medicine... Again. :(

It’s so hard sometimes. The medications do not help so I say: “What’s the point? I’ve made it this far.” In reality, I’m still just suffering. Like Snowy said, it might be that I want to keep this miserable feeling. I’m used to it. I wish it would get easier

I also did this early on my mental healthy medication journey, I think it's very normal. I never felt 100% better on different medications, and sometimes life just demands you to stop. No rhyme or reason, sometimes you just hit a plateau and need a change. I went off all my drugs a little over two years ago, and faced withdrawal for a good few months. But I can say it was worth it, at least I don't feel numb all the time anymore

One thing that I've started working on in therapy is taking breaks from life to do things I enjoy when I'm NOT having a terrible day. We realized that I only "reward" myself with a rest when I'm not doing well, so that behavior/feeling gets strengthened. It feels safer to be not okay because if you aren't okay, then if you fail to succeed, there's an obvious reason why. It isn't because you weren't smart enough or diplomatic enough or didn't put in enough work, OBVIOUSLY it's because you're mentally unwell and that is a lot easier to blame than your own shortcomings. Longish backstory, but maybe you are neglecting to take your meds because on some level, you actually WANT to feel miserable. That happened to me and it's a tough cycle to break