Looking for medication to calm my anxiety

Have you tried Benzos? As a recovering benzo addict I strongly advise against them. They without a doubt work, for both anxiety and deprresion but only for a while, you get a tolerance very quickly and end up buying more illicity. They are very physical addictive, and getting treatment in the UK is practically impossible, I've been stuck on them for 28 years. Hope this helps

Buspar has been amazing for me.

I am very scared of addiction it runs in my family would I be ok if I got on a benzo

Ativan, a benzodiazepine, worked really well for me. And Klonopin, also a benzodiazepine, later on. Klonopin did cause me some memory issues after an extended period of use though.

I also haven’t found one yet- I’m so sorry for the shared experience

I find melatonin helpful but only for getting to sleep 💤😴 other than that I would try meditating.