Losing a Friend Because of Misplaced Emotions

Mother's day this year fell on the same day my mom died 11 years ago. It tore me up worse than I thought it would. At the same time my bestfriend that lives in Ireland was dealing with relationship stuff. I decided to type out what that week was to me, what I went through etc. I didn't think because she has similar trauma with her mom. Me not really knowing triggers because mine don't seem to be like everyone else's, figured me talking about my experience wouldn't be a problem. Needless to say it was. I apologized and moved passed it. But I let that energy take over the frustration I had with her on again off again boyfriend. I came off as brutish, and was basically letting my emotions take the wheel. Misplaced emotions. And in the end...she stopped talking to me. 2 years of boundaries I was able to let down, and she was gone like that. I've never be able to be open with people, thinking everyone just wants information to hurt me. But for once in a very very long time, I found someone I could open up to. No expectations other than to be there. And I ruined it. I don't know if we will ever be friends again. I hope so. I wrote her a long winded explanation when I was able to calm down...but I don't know... It's been over 2 months now, and I'm still waiting...I wish I could wrote this off like anyone else, but I just can't. Some days are easier than others. Today isn't an easy one...