Living with Epilepsy: Uncertainty and Fear

Back in around 1999 or 2000 I was diagnosed with epilepsy then back in 2008 ish I was told he was certain that I wasn't having anymore active epileptic seizures but still said that I would always be called an epileptic. He also told me that if I have so much stress mentally or physically that they can come back at anytime and more than likely won't stop again. Anyways a month ago I had an eeg done an awake one. I had a few abnormal findings but didn't have an active seizure at the time of the test. The results shows that he said I have seizures now though so I'm just idk I'm scared due to I don't know when it happens or what kind I have now. I go next month to see if I need to have an MRI done or the sleep deprived eeg this time or both. I spent 13 years thinking that I was okay when I don't really 100% know for sure if they every ended or came back but different. Anyway I guess my question is what's next in my journey? I was so young back then I was diagnosed when I was round 5 or 6 and was told they ended when I was 14. So I don't really remember allot of it besides always going into the hospital to have blood work done or an sleep deprived eeg. Other than that I have no idea what my symptoms before or after was like after one or what it was like during one. Sorry for the long post.