Discovering Our Inner System: Living with Dissociative Identity Disorder

Okay, so we finally figured out that having a complex inner system that pretty much acts as a jury in your head that consistently goes by the titles Me, Myself, and I with different people taking care of different tasks isn't as the neurotypicals say, "normal". We're not officially diagnosed, we've barely talked to our therapist about this, but our fellow system friend heard our disassociation and I-just-sort-of-watched-myself-do-it stories and said,"yep. sounds like my disorder. :)" Then they gave us that official looking disassocitive disorder symptoms test and we scored a 57.5 (our already diagnosed system friend scored somewhere in the 30s for context). Then when we realized we were *actually* people and not just goofy little trauma side affects we started switching a lot on purpose. Because that was an option now apparently. Oh, and our hyperfixation on DID in middle school where we ultimately decided we didn't have it because we don't experience black-out amnesia wasn't so random after all. So on the one hand this is really nice because it's easier to talk about things with eachother and we all have legit names now. On the other hand it's extremely stressful and our host of at least 3 years is leaving the front more and more often and leaving me to just sort of figure things out? he needs the break but it's really overwhelming. So I downloaded another app lol. I guess I'm just looking for someone to talk to about all of this before we convince ourselves we're faking again. Or maybe just say this all out loud so we feel a little less crazy idk