Living with Derealization: My Journey to Healing

Hi! I have Derealization. I think the tough thing about it is that I am aware of it every second of every day. I still try my best to live my life, do my work, but it never feels as fulfilling because of my derealization. I believe it stems from trauma, as my parents have been struggling with alcohol addiction for a LONG TIME. They get really scary when they're drunk. One time, I didnt go to school for a year. So I had to deal with all this violence at home, and had no exposure to anything else in life. Anyways, I'm on a healing journey :) I'm reading self help books, and gaining my self esteem back. My goal is to someday permanently ground myself back into the real world. Usually, grounding techniques only ground me for a few seconds or for a minute at most. If you have any advice, or relate, or need help or anything at all, feel free to message :)