Change doctors doesn't sound like they are in your corner...work on yourself no one can do it for you...self esteem journal prompts are a good Google them and set an alarm for every day to sit and journal...also pain journal prompts or even find a pain diary to hit down everything in your morning noon dinner time and bedtime and show it to your new doctor. Things to jot down would be what you ate, did physically, pain level, meds taken when, stressors in your day, and anything else that maybe useful for the doctor to piece together a plan of action with you. What you don't want to do is write it like a diary and write letters no organized boxes that hold info Google daily pain journal printouts and get the general idea look through them all take what fits and use it or print out the one you are excited to fill out on a four times a day basis. Set alarms for these journal times so you don't forget. And Advocate for yourself because covid we can't have our advocating supporter with us for appointments or you could video call them while in the Dr visit if Dr agrees.
Routines are extremely helpful in all situations life can throw at us. It grounds us and allows us to expect things which eases anxiety and allows you to be in the present moment.
Now my story, I am 42 nearly (in may I turn 42) I had 7 babies, I had L5S1 fusion done July 2016 a few days after Pokemon go released. Among other surgeries like hysterectomy, removal of tube and ovary because cysts, tubal ligation, gallbladder removed, wisdom teeth extraction, muscle biopsy, colonoscopy, endoscopy, TMJ flushing joint worst pain ever and after giving me 1-2 every 4-6 hours I took 2 every 4 hours and was still in pain doctor refused to treat my pain said I was addicted, and had a LEEP done to remove precancerous cells from my cirvix.
I have fibromyalgia, ADHD, Major Depression, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, and bursitis in both hips and both shoulders.
I've been a stay at home mom since 2002, and am now having to get a job to support me and my two kids as I am in the process of divorce. I am in college to get degree in IT technology so I can get a help desk job in the end with my A+ certification diploma. I got my highschool diploma last year. I'm working on me journaling has helped shape me I to who I really am...so I can stop focusing on what other people think about who I am and what I'm about. Getting up and personal with myself. And I am in no hurry to find someone else. I'm working on loving myself for who I actually am and not who I was molding myself into being for other people.
This process has been very helpful in all aspects of my life