Living with Chronic Migraines: My Struggle

I HATE migraines. I'm 19 almost 20 and I have had these stupid things since I was 6. You'd think by now I'd be used to them or be able to work with them but no. They appear when they want, last how long they want, and leave when they want. Some migraines I have last up to several days with intensity fluctuating. My migraines make me tired, nauseous, make my vision go black and make me extremely dizzy and nearly pass out. it makes it extremely dangerous to do even the most simple tasks because I risk hurting myself or others. it makes it so dang hard to do anything I want. not a lot of medicine works and medicine I have taken that was prescribed to me by a doctor typically only works for a few days before the medication stops all together or just makes them worse. The only thing that's typically worked is Excedrin and I can't even take it all that often because I don't need to have it stop working for me. I've been to multiple doctors and I've tried everything! I feel like a liability. and within the last year, the intensity of my migraines has gone up. they hurt so bad I feel like I'm about to die. I thought I knew pain but this new level of hurt is so much worse. and the thing is, I've grown up in a family that if you don't work while you're sick, then you might as well not contribute to anything in life. I'm completely useless most of the time because I'm in bed waiting for the migraine to pass. I promise I'm trying my best. I work, I take college classes, I have therapy apps for my mental health, I take care of myself but it never seems to be good enough. I see the looks of disappointment and pity when I tell someone I have a migraine and need a break. the kicker is that these migraines are genetic. I don't want to be in pain anymore.