The Struggle of Living with Chronic Illness

I’m just tired of being ill haha. physically and mentally it really takes a bigger toll than many think, even I forget sometimes how dehabilitating this all can be. Having to calculate how much energy things will cost. Having to half ass certain activities to save spoons for something later in the day. Struggling with jealousy on how all these neurotypical/ non-spoonies just do whatever they want/need to do and can have a good time. I dont know many non-“normies”. It’s kinda lonely. I’m exhausted. In every aspect. All the time. 😢