Feeling like my life is falling apart

I have anxiety, depression, and chronic back pain. I take Xanax and purchase powdered Kratom and mix it with juice. I also take Zoloft but I don't believe it helps me. But Kratom alone gets me through the day, with a little extra boost from the Xanax. Kratom helps with pain, my horrible anxiety, and hardcore depression. Without Kratom, I can't even get out of bed due to the pain and the mental health boost. I'd look into it if you can, it's usually sold at headshops but it's not illegal nor will it pop up on a drug test. Hope that helps you and good luck!