Considering Ketamine for Borderline Personality Disorder: Need Advice

I just have a very very sensitive reaction to medications they said I’d have to go in the doctors office and they’d do it like every 2 or 1 weeks but I don’t wanna feel like a guinea pig also I’m afraid it’s like Xanax and I’m afraid I’ll lose more of myself I saw there’s a lot of scary side effects:( did you get any side affects?

I was on ketamine for treatment resistant depression, and it helped a lot. The actual treatment took a bit of getting used to, but after the first few treatments I knew what to expect, and I started seeing results fairly quickly. I wish I could have afforded to stay on it. Worked better than any of the dozen+ pharmaceutical antidepressants I’ve been on.