Identity crisis: struggling to find my place in the world

Hi Astryd! Im Anna! To answer your questions, my mom is my best friends, but I don’t have a good relationship with my dad. I take Lamictal and it literally changed my life 10/10. I made friends when I was in college, but lost them over time after graduation. I really have like 2 friends these days.

my relation with my parents is complicated. my mother is the reason I have BPD. my dad sides with her. I took Zoloft and aripiprazole, and hated it. now I'm on lamictol, prozac, and Naltrexone. it's easy for me to make friends but harder to keep them

Not with my mom, she left for a while and the way she did was really crappy. I was 13, I was undiagnosed BPD, and my mom has undiagnosed mental issues so we really didn't get along. Long story short, at 16 ish I got diagnosed with this. I took, apriprozol (spelling?) and it toned down my emotions from an 11 to a 6-5. Scale is 1-10, mind you. It helped me a lot at a point that I needed them. And in that time I also learned to control my emotions, a lot of the time. Sometimes though I still struggle

I have a relatively good relationship with my parents, I’ve recently been diagnosed so it’s still a process of figuring out what meds are going to be the best for me. I do find it extremely hard making friends. Having actual close tight bonds has been so hard for me my whole life. I’ve never had a best friend or even if I have a group of friends I hang out with a lot I still feel so isolated from them and not fully there or connected. The only person who I’ve been getting close to and opening up to is my significant other. That has been really hard in itself because I genuinely want to have a healthy relationship with them and communicate more of my feelings. I’ve just always felt like an outcast in groups even if they welcome me in or a lot of people just don’t know what fully goes on in my mind.