I Hate Myself and Want to Die

tw: body talk, suicidal thoughts, groomers i hate myself. i hate my friends. i hate my body. i hate my hair. i hate my family. i have nothing going for me. i don't have any hobbies. or any interest. im a loser. i'll never find anyone who'll actually like me, im so ugly and boring and fat and lazy. i can't do anything for myself. everyone hates me. i can't help anybody with their issues. im not a good person. i miss my groomer. i want to go back to him, no one else will love me like he did. no one will ever look at me like he did. even if he didn't really like me. i don't want to do this anymore. i won't make it to college, i won't get a job or my license. no one ever uses the right pronouns on me. im not a girl. I don't want to be a girl. im sick of being a girl, it makes me cry. i hate living. i hate myself. i want to die