Hello everyone, I have just realized that I have this disorder but cant make a Drs appt to confirm diagnosis until Mon
I thought I had BPD. Ive been diagnosed with depression and anxiety. But I started noticing patterns of mental issues that seem to go with my cycle.
Every 2 weeks my husband and I fight like cats and dogs for 2 weeks.... (BPD cycles every 2 weeks as well)
I have misphonia, which I just learned is when repetitive sounds drive you crazy.
I have:
feelings of sadness, despair, thoughts of suicide (I always thought it was passive suicide ideation, which is sometimes a symptom of bpd)
Always tense; I have anxiety and panic attacks.
Mood swings, I used to cry alot until my husband said I was using it as a manipulation tactic and I choose to bottle up those emotions and turn it into anger instead of sadness. Not proud of this; Simply stating facts š¢
Which brings me to lasting anger and irritability that affects other people š¢
Lack of interests in daily activities and relationships š¢
Trouble thinking or focusing (I thought this was adhd)
Tiredness or low-energy (thought it was depression)
Food cravings or binge eating (yes)
Trouble sleeping (nearly always)
Feeling out of control (yes šµ)
Physical symptoms, such as bloating, breast tenderness, headaches, and joint or muscle pain (I WAS TOLD THESE WERE NORMAL PERIOD SYMPTOMS!!!)
And finally:
The last time I was without extra hormones in my body from birth control or pregnancy:
**trigger warning: self harm**
The last day of my last period for my oldest was Jan 3 2010. Exactly 2 weeks prior to this day was Dec 20th 2009... which happens to be the day I last tried to unalive myself. Also would have been the 1st day of my PMDD cycle...
Im sorry if i triggered anyone, this is the first time I am admitting it to anyone who wasnt there and Im really sorry if it triggers you but Im saying it because:
30% OF THOSE WITH PMDD WILL
ATTEMPT SUICIDE
While men assigned male at birth are more likely to die by suicide,
women assigned female at birth attempt suicide three times more often.
I am a statistic. Before I ever knew I had the disorder š¢
How do you cope? Does Midol help? I've never tried it... Is there a medication out there to help with the symptoms or is it a therapy only approach? Do we just avoid the ones we love 2 weeks out the month so we dont accidentially hurt their feelings???
Any/all info or suggestions your willing to give will be greatly appreciated!!