How and when does it get better, life?

Honestly, what helped it get better for me was finding the right medication, a good therapist (through trial and error) and a community of people who actually have my back. As well as getting out of the environment that I was in, I couldn’t get better in a place that was feeding my mental illness.

wow, that is rough... I definitely understand why you are feeling this way. You sit and think, after everything that has happend, how do you even begin to start picking up the pieces and putting a "normal" life back together. I have some past trauma in my life, and have been stuck in a situation that made me feel like ending it all. I understand that feeling of helplessness. Your trying so hard to keep your head above water but you just keep sinking. The thing that has helped me a bit has been getting into a healthier routine. I have improved my sleep schedule, put myself on an eating schedule (I binge eat), I make a little alone time for myself to decompress, just small things to take the edge of the day off. On top of my emotional trauma, 4 yrs ago I became ill and never got better. I was in the darkest point in my life I had ever been in about 3 years ago. The thought going through my head were scaring me and I knew I needed to get some help out side of my family. I started thing to therapy just with a counselor to help me sort out my emotions and learn better ways to cope. I went for about two months and it was just enough to get some good advice and release some of the grief I was dealing with. If your are interested and have the funds to do so, maybe talking to a professional would be a good thing too. Just having someone to listen and hear you and be able to offer you healthy ways to cope with and manage your feelings. It was helpful for me. I know you can't exactly just up and change your environment or change who your family members are, but I think taking some time for YOU is much needed. I am always here to talk if you need an ear. ❤️