Homeless Again: My Struggle to Provide for My Family

my family and I are homeless, for a second time this year and the 1st time was very traumatizing,because I was pregnant and went into the hospital homeless... had my daughter and brought her "home" to a hotel room. I've used to work alot and was moreless the soul provider of my household,but after I found out I was pregnant I stopped working because I was high risk with my twins and almost died of liver failure, because I worked during my entire pregnancy as a CNA until my last trimester. So my husband agreed to get a job, so I could relax while pregnant take care of our baby and our other 3 kids. But since he's been working we've been homeless, gotten a new apartment but was evicted (due to my husband loosing his job and our vehicle. Rent was due but he spent 3 weeks out not trying to find another job while our vehicle was gone. Note:we live in town near plenty of restaurants and a Walmart within walking distance) But I'm severely stressed because I don't see a way out of this situation. and I fault myself because if I was workin things that needed to get paid would've been paid and we'd still be in our townhouse apartment 😫😭🙃😪 Feels lik I'm going crazy...lately laughing or gritting my teeth really tight to keep from crying...Tbh I feel like I live in hell. Almost to the point I rather die and be in hell😫🙃😭