If I don't understand myself, why do I expect others to be understanding?

Being misunderstood by other people. I absolutely refuse to mask and it makes people treat me worse, but I'll take it over being constantly overwhelmed and burnt out socially. I just wish I could find a balance between my own comfort and the comfort of the people around me.

feeling outcast in social situations and finding out what helps me unmask.

I recently started working on unmasking to delay burn out frequency. The balance is super hard for me to figure out while misunderstandings abound. Humor and sarcasm can be tricky. My annoyance at hip pain can translate into my tone and make jokes fall flat

Personally, it's with making friends. I've been blessed with a wonderful boyfriend and a few friends without having to mask, but they're online and I find it significantly easier to have them online (except for the boyfriend) but offline, I've been outcasted and basically kept inside until age 15, it does get difficult to see a friend group and be like "oh.. if only"

not being able to give a good answer to "why cant you ____, its so easy!" or something along those lines. i mean now i have an answer, but it still hurts to hear

The idea the autisic connuity often makes it harder then nerotypicl people so and often are judgey tbh .

Bluntly wish i was not autisic whitch is one of the things i hate about the conmuity is the idea when i say i dont want my disibility they are jerks about it . Like yea some people are high functioning so they do fine with thiers. Thats nice. But it shoud be aloud to not want a disibility with out judgement

Putting up with people and all their complicated, contradictory emotions and arguments about pointless garbage. It could be so easy...

Having a hard time finding foods I can eat