Struggling to Find the Right Therapist for My BPD

I’m having a really hard time finding the right therapist for me…I’ve been through 20 therapists in my lifetime. None of them really address the issues and half-ass their sessions. I need someone who can really sit down with my and guide me through my BPD…however, we are always seen as a “lost cause”. Even when I do find a therapist that claims to specialize in BPD, they never have hours that match up with mine or they don’t accept insurance…I have grown to not have any faith in mental health professionals. We are only a disposable source of income.