Feeling Like Something is Wrong with Me

i feel like there’s something wrong with me. past my anxiety. there’s no way i’m this messed up ONLY because of anxiety. it feels too wrong. but i cant be depressed and idk i don’t think u have anything else. i just feel like i was born wrong. and my meds don’t work but i don’t want to have to go through the process of changing them again. and i have no friends and i feel so lonely all the time. and the only thing i like is cheer. i just feel like whenever i’m sad, it’s the only thing i’ve ever felt and when i’m happy, it’s the only way i’ll ever feel.