Feeling Lost and Anxious: A Morning Chat

It's a few after 6. I've showered and gotten a cup of coffee. Currently watching the news, but I don't like the news really. I don't like TV. But my neighbor gave me his old TV last month. Told me to turn it on sometimes so my house isn't always quiet. So I'm sitting on the edge of the bed with the TV on, but I can't tell you what they're reporting on. They said something about the weather, they had a picture of Trump up there but I don't know what they said. Somebody getting food ready for some kids in South America, they just said that..... But none of it really matters much to me. I want someone to do a report telling me where tf I went wrong in life!!... But I guess I'll get up at 7, then I'll get dressed. Hopefully, nothing will wreck my nerves and I have to shower again because I've already put on deodorant. I used to not even wear it because my anxiety caused me to shower so much, I'd be using to much deodorant during the day. I'm a lot better now, but early menopause might have me jumping back in there anyway. 🤷🏿‍♀️ I'm just chatting now to pass the time and distract myself.