Feeling Lazy and Terrible About Myself

I have never related to anything more. I feel like this all the time when I have to cancel plans using my lower back/pelvic pain as an excuse. It can become extremely isolating and feel like no one understands

Yes I have days when I feel sleepy all day. On those days I don't feel like doing anything.

Yea, I think about this frequently. Most times it makes me kind of sad because I feel behind or that I’m not doing enough. But a lot of days I’m surprised from peoples reactions about very normal things not making them hurt or dizzy

Yes! And I feel guilty too :(

there might be others too. sometimes people are feeling that pain but hiding it or ignoring it. for many years i had back pain but told myself it was "nothing" because my dad has worse chronic back pain... now here i am more than a year into applying for disability ::v but i am always astounded when i ask friends about the pain, or when i talk about my pain and they're surprised, that kind of stuff. i ask my partner a lot just to confirm. "that... doesn't hurt you? you're not feeling pain from that?" and it's always "nope, no pain". always confusing. i think the reason it ends up so confusing though, is that i don't trust my own experience? like, all the time it's "oh this didnt hurt as much as i expected, i must not have pain" or "maybe everyone has pain like this but they just ignore it and it's part of their normal life" ... it's kinda stupid when i think rationally about it, but not being able to know others' experience (and not being able to process those differences as normal variation within people) means it's tough to think about from any angle