Feeling Empty Around Friends: Seeking Advice

Depression is a hard one as is anxiety. My emotions make me appear about as emotional as my child on a bad day. I didn't realize I had anxiety and depression at first until my doctor just recently diagnosed me with both. I can be a comfort buddy if you want. The world is difficult to understand. Welcome to message me if you have questions about what it's like for me or what I do.

I totally understand how you’re feeling and if it means anything to you please rest assured DOES it gets better. I felt the same way ESPECIALLY in middle/high school. I felt so alone even if when I was with friends who said they cared, I just never knew if I could believe that. I also had a lot of self loathing which I think really helped to promote those feelings, thoughts like “why would anyone want to be friends with ME? I wouldn’t even want to be friends with me” were common place. What ultimately has helped me (now 8 years out of high school) is learning to love myself. Having enough confidence and love for me and knowing that the right people will stick around and if they don’t, that’s okay! It wasn’t meant to be has drastically altered my perception on friendship. Especially in high school friends will come and go but usually that isn’t a reflection on you, it’s just life (and it sucks sometimes!). Be kind to yourself and know others have been in similar shoes, you are not alone. Also, it sounds like your mom really means the best and isn’t trying to invalidate your feelings and I’m so sorry that’s how it’s coming across to you. I pushed my mom away for all the same reasons at your age but all these years later I realize everything she did was out of love and she I are closer then ever. If she wants to listen and hear how you’re feeling don’t be afraid to talk to her, I really wish I had!

I understand this completely. Your emotions are valid, and although I haven't found a way to help yet, I do know that you shouldn't give up and that this isn't going to last forever