Feeling Different: My Struggle with Mental Illness

Every new doctor has a new diagnosis and new medication. I just wish I'd have a proper diagnosis so I can get ok.

Since I've moved 800 miles away from home. I haven't been able to find health insurance. So I'm off my medication since. I'm just trying to stay busy so I don't think about it. I have my days. But underneath all my positive outlook I feel less of a person. Like I'm not in control. But I'm doing a lot better and everyone that knows me and cares about me want me to keep going. I only have to hold on until Nov before I get insurance through the company I work at. I'm just losing faith in myself

Being different is not always a bad thing. It can be freeing to just be who you are without trying to contort yourself to fit into the boxes defined by society. But it might be worth under close supervision of a doctor possibly inpatient trying to get off all the meds and be re-evaluated for what conditions you do and don’t have and find meds that may help you feel better. Sounds like either you’re getting side effects from your meds or you’re on the wrong ones and they are not helping manage your symptoms.